The Tranquility Ov One

[DEMIGODDESS]

It's like building a castle of playing cards.
Each one you place with delicate care.
Where they lean and stand are just as intricate.
You take precious minutes, hours, to perfect it.
Even one or perhaps couples may fall,
You slowly build it back, though there may be a differ.
At last you place the last cards, a smile upon your face.
What has been accomplished shows its possible worth.
The castle is almost complete, much time and effort gone by.
Just then you lean the last one,
and it all falls flat upon the table.
You see the clock,
The hands have spun far from when you began
So tedious the castle was, though it had almost been right,
A decision by not only you but what held the cards..
The Castle fell.
And your time was lost.



I'm single, and no tears fall, though the rush of my wasted time and effort burns.

A revival, I have no one but myself again, no one to share my time, my effort, my wants, no one to devote time to in which they do not deserve. No more forgiveness for those who do not deserve. I am once again reunited with the only one who is ov importance.
I almost feel sorry for him once again...he lost who cared most.
Boys will be boys, even when a real woman walks by.
This is what was once, myself and only myself, and it is again as it always should have been.

[David Augustine]

Aw, everything will be alright. Don't worry about it and excellent work by writing this and everything!

[DEMIGODDESS]

Oh, I'm not worrying at all.
Everything feels better because it ended.

[Alezand Jozlyn, Allaine knight]

ah, alas, I know all too well...

"You are a bottomless pool of beauty,
casting a reflection of infinite madness onto me.
Your ripples turn to waves, crashing againt the sand,
making me yearn to hold your hand.
And yet like a well, I can't reach you spirit,
I try to say the words, but you won't hear it.
I have no way to reach you, and I don't know what to do.
All I see in my reflection, is the insanity of my affection.
It grows, more and more, inside of me to a deafening roar.
And yet you only look back at me, with your waters of infinite beauty.
I have fallen in, like a fool, my heart drowning in your pool.
Ever falling farther down, where my remains shall never be found.
the one soul I yearn the most for, doesn't understand why my heart is sore.
And I drown in love, alone and cold.
without you, my dearest to hold.
I hit the bottom, still lost in your beauty,
As you leave me to die inside most painfully."

This is actually a spur of the moment edit from the original that I wrote two years ago. I had alot to go off of when I wrote this, and still am scarred somewhat to this day, for my pain would not end there. within that that following year, it would seem that I would lose all those whom I cared for the most, and the focal point was on the very moment that which this describes. So yes, I very much know what you are going through and understand all too well...

[DEMIGODDESS]

You misunderstand, though I appreciate your words. I am NOT in pain at all. I just suffer from wasted time, wasted effort. Though I'm merely disappointed in myself for allowing it to happen, it still doesn't crush me.

This was for the best, this is how it should be. I was going to end it sooner for how wrong he treated me on more than one occasion, though I thought I owed him some effort and "other chances" as a girlfriend.

My time was worth far more than to be thrown away to some boy who claims to be a man and still cant figure out what he wants.

It wasn't my loss at all =)